work

I've been working a lot. Well, actually I've only been working about 40 hours a week - but it feels like a lot. Plus if you add my commute (at least 20 minutes one way) then it is more than 40 hours a week, but not much more. I had just forgotten what that was - or perhaps I never knew. I've never worked for 40 hours a week where I was on my feet the whole time. I mean the WHOLE time, there are no seats in the kitchen and it would be weird if there were - but still I feel like I'm working a lot.

It also seems like everything comes at you at once. I am feeling overwhelmed about working and then on top of that one of my coworkers quit so I'm working two extra shifts this week (go overtime!). Plus, I'm looking for an apartment to move into by May. I'm also doing research on buying a scooter, because a car is just too expensive! I tried to go to three different scooter shops today, but apparently Monday is the day all scooter shops are closed. Now, it looks I'm going to need to buy my own computer soon too. A lot of money to be spent, I guess should be happy that I'm working all this overtime so that I can afford to buy all these fun things I want.

I guess this is just a rant about feeling like I don't have any time - of course when I wasn't working full time I felt like I had all the time in the world and I didn't do much with it. I suppose I'm being more productive now that I have to squeeze more into my day. Perhaps it is useful to have parameters like 40+ hours a week of work to make sure that other things get done.

Easter

It doesn't feel like Easter to me. Maybe that's because I haven't been very disciplined about my Lenten discipline. Maybe that's because I didn't go to Church on Ash Wednesday, Maundy Thursday or Good Friday. Maybe that's because I'm going to work this afternoon (with break for the Easter vigil). Maybe it's because I'm planning on spending my Easter Sunday working.

I don't feel like I'm ready to celebrate the death and resurrection of Jesus. Perhaps we're never ready, but God is always ready. As we say at Church, God is more willing to give than we are to receive. Easter Saturday. Holy Saturday. Today just feels like a normal Saturday. Perhaps after Church this evening Easter will be more real to me. Maybe I'll begin to think that I understand the mystery of Christ.

Christ has died.

Christ is risen.

Christ will come again.